I am a huge people pleaser. I hate to have people upset with me, or worse, disappointed. I come down on myself quite hard if I don't meet (and often exceed) people's expectations. I just don't like the idea of people thinking less of me.
I have been majorly struggling with this recently. I want to get it all done. I need to get it all done. I want to make everyone happy. I want to keep the house spotless, be caught up on laundry, play with my baby, make healthy dinners, blog and scrapbook our life moments, stay current with friends, be up to day on my work items...and it goes on and on.
I have to-do lists, goal lists, grocery lists, and project lists. I budget my money and my time. I plan and organize and recite to myself what comes next. I constantly find myself saying, "if I do this then I can do that next." I rush around like a mad woman until I completely crash in the evenings.
Recently I decided that I wanted to read the bible in a year. I downloaded an app on my phone and started browsing the plans. Wouldn't you know one that caught my attention was titled the plan for a busy women: how to lead a rich and satisfying life. I'm pretty sure God was trying to tell me something.
How am I going to lead a rich and satisfying life? Definitely not the way I'm going right now. I'm rushing through life as if the day to day doesn't matter. Why should Saturday be more important than Tuesday?
I have to remind myself that I am only one woman. I can only do so much, but the one thing I should always do is enjoy everyday. I need to enjoy my husband and I need to enjoy my son.