I am a huge people pleaser. I hate to have people upset with me, or worse, disappointed. I come down on myself quite hard if I don't meet (and often exceed) people's expectations. I just don't like the idea of people thinking less of me.
I have been majorly struggling with this recently. I want to get it all done. I need to get it all done. I want to make everyone happy. I want to keep the house spotless, be caught up on laundry, play with my baby, make healthy dinners, blog and scrapbook our life moments, stay current with friends, be up to day on my work items...and it goes on and on.
I have to-do lists, goal lists, grocery lists, and project lists. I budget my money and my time. I plan and organize and recite to myself what comes next. I constantly find myself saying, "if I do this then I can do that next." I rush around like a mad woman until I completely crash in the evenings.
Recently I decided that I wanted to read the bible in a year. I downloaded an app on my phone and started browsing the plans. Wouldn't you know one that caught my attention was titled the plan for a busy women: how to lead a rich and satisfying life. I'm pretty sure God was trying to tell me something.
How am I going to lead a rich and satisfying life? Definitely not the way I'm going right now. I'm rushing through life as if the day to day doesn't matter. Why should Saturday be more important than Tuesday?
I have to remind myself that I am only one woman. I can only do so much, but the one thing I should always do is enjoy everyday. I need to enjoy my husband and I need to enjoy my son.
I had to comment on this.
ReplyDeleteI think our society tells us that we can have it all, do it all, be it all. All while looking fabulous and perfect. The truth is that its not possible. As moms we are stretched waayyy to thin. I realized this when I went back to work with my daughter. Something had to give, something was GOING to suffer. Period. I couldn't do it all. So I chose housework. I let my house be less than what I would prefer and even hired out help with some problem areas (ugh - still can't stand doing my floors). And then a year later I decided it just was not the way I wanted my daughter raised and decided to stay at home until she's in preschool. The last year has been challenging to say the least. And being a stay at home is not for everyone. But I will have my whole life to work and this time is precious and fleeting and I will never get it back. Good luck in staying on top of things. Give yourself some room to breathe :)
I'd love to know the name of that app. I think it's so important to take care of yourself so you can be the best you want to be for your family. And, so often we put ourselves last.
ReplyDeleteYou are only one woman, and it's so great you realize it. :)
I have become acutely aware that if I am really, really lucky, I will have about 85 February 20ths. That's it. So I don't want to waste a single one, waiting for February 21.
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